JUNE 3RD 2014: 9:00AM Today, I was staying home with Bella and I sent Justine to the nursery. The bad worker is gone and they have amazing ones now. So, I woke Bella up and we had a decent morning of feeding her and dressing her. For breakfast, I got Bella her favorite peach baby food. She ate slowly and beautifully. JUNE 3RD 2014: 10:30AM Bella was cold in her little outfit so I put her back in her pink onezie. She said onezie today and it was beautiful. She crawled around the room for a little until she got thirsty. She had a drink of milk and was put to sleep after that. She was a little bit fussy. JUNE 3RD 2014: 11:00AM Bella had been sleeping for a long time and I went to wake her up. The first thing I saw is Bella lying in her crib back turned to me. I went and shook her. I turned her around and the next thing I know it, my baby has a blue face and is suffocated. I was panicked. I called Ms. Nalonan. She showed up with the ambulance and they took my angel to the hospital to try and revive Bella. JUNE 3RD 2014: 11:57 The saddest part is, I can barely say it but Bella Carol Michelle Fink joined her big sister in Heaven. Our angel died. I have 2 Heavenly angels and 1 earthly angel. Today my angel died. I'm still crying. I miss her and I want to hold Bella in my arms again. I miss her so much. I'll never forget Bella Carol Michelle Fink. She's always been my baby. Bella was such a blessing to this family and she filled in for Carol for a while. I spent nearly 4 months loving Bella and now I want her back to move on to another 5 and then 6 and then 7 and soon a year. Now, we only have Justine in our lives. My beautiful angel has went to see her sister. This family wouldn't be where we are now if Bella hadn't come along. And she did and were very happy to have had Bella in the Fink family. The second Fink flew to Heaven and it wasn't because of Malaria. I have some photos of Bella I took today at around 9:30am. They're simply beautiful and I miss her so much now! There's the angel who flew all the way to Heaven to see her big sister today. There's our brave little girl. She was so brave and I'm so upset. Our brave daughter took a journey all the way up to Heaven. She decided to join Carol. She wanted to get to know her more so she decided to leave us. I miss Bella and I really wish I could have her here. In her loving memory.... Why Did Bella Die? Bella died of SIDS which stands for Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. It happens to any baby any time. It normally happens in between 2 and 4 months. Bella was almost 4 months. She was 3 months and 18 days. SIDS is common in healthy babies. Bella was very healthy and SIDS got her. I wouldn't necessarily say SIDS is a disease. It happens a lot. I still can't get past that first Carol died then Bella died. What has happened? I didn't tell anyone yet. Not even Woody, Bella's own daddy. Justine doesn't know about her baby sister's death either. Bella was the most loving baby in the world. I miss her so much. SIDS is awful and no mother should have to go through their baby dying of SIDS. I turned out to be one of those mothers. I miss Bella so much. In Memory of Bella Carol Michelle Fink from February 16th 2014-June 3rd 2014. We love and miss you with our hearts my baby angel. Nobody can ever take your place. I always love you honey! I miss you so bad. 3 Months and 18 Days of life was given to beautiful Bella. Those 3 months and 18 days have come to an end. Her life on earth had a limit. She's finally reached that limit...